beyond all expectations

After I published yesterday's post I segued to what I thought would be an abbreviated land consecration ceremony.   Had barely begun the process when I felt myself connected to the spring season's nature spirits and earth angels.  Their input made it clear that they could "carry" me throughout the activity; that I could give it as much or as little as I felt to be in my best interest.  This is a wonderful awareness that always humbles and energizes me with equal measure.  I began to suspect that I might be able to accomplish more than I'd originally imagined.  All the same I remained focused on working one water bottle* at a time and staying ultra-conscious of my body's ebb and flow.

At a certain point - as I was circling the beloved silver maple and singing gently to it with my entire heart & soul - I became aware that I probably had enough stamina to go the whole nine yards and consecrate the entire property.  WOW!  I was so happy to realize this.  The unfolding process felt wonderful.   Authentic joy bloomed throughout my consciousness.  I felt it fusing with my blood, bones, and muscles.

Ceremonial euphoria is not always one of life's more grounded experiences but, because so much of my energy and focus has been spent on my physical state of being, I wound up embracing an extremely grounded process.  This included stopping several times to hydrate and consciously connect my singular root awareness to Our Mother's rooted core beneath the ground. Am determined to remember this experience and build upon it because the dual consciousness definitely enhanced the general vibration rather than detracting from it. 

Along the way I was especially drawn to a clump of white violets blooming among the masses of purple flowers.  I addressed the cluster silently: I hope you keep producing flowers and agree to my making an essence from them some time next week.  The flowers seemed to pulse and twinkle at me.  As I was rounding the side of the house to go back into the kitchen for more water, I felt their medicine spirit asking me WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?

I had no answer for that question - not even by way of a lame excuse.  Although it was later in the day than I would normally start an essence preparation, there would still be enough hours of direct sunlight for alchemy to do its work. With that realization I started to get excited all over again.  Among its other gifts the day was revealing itself as the official start of 2008's co-creative season!  There's really no more I could have asked for from the day.  As I stood admiring the sunny bowl it fully dawned on me that I was going to be able to cross a long-standing item from my mental wish list.

 
For several years I've been very interested in co-creating with the white violet medicine spirit.  But I didn't think of that when I first spied the little cluster of white flowers earlier in the week.  I simply felt the quiet thrill that always comes from the surprising arrival of a beautiful flower.   To paraphrase - I didn't ask what the flower could do for me, but only how I might help it feel most comfortable and welcome.

True to Violet's vibrational signature, the flowers simply wanted to-be without fanfare or too much extra attention.  Note:  The purple variety of this flower remedy is long-established as a strong protective & healing ally for those who are inherently shy, introverted and hyper-sensitive.  The pink variety holds special affinity for those who have retreated into themselves and/or grown mistrustful and armored following damage to the heart region.   The white variety holds a similar affinity for those who have experienced some kind of spiritual trauma or misadventure.  And, as always, these brief sentences describe just one aspect of the remedies' potentiality; the aspect that's most commonly recognized and frequently employed by alterna-healers who embrace electrical remedies.

I think it's quite significant that I've been traveling a learning & growth curve that precludes setting terms, making plans, and establishing parameters - traveling the curve out of sensible necessity without thought to the unplanned benefits my efforts were bound to reap.  Although I've been intently focused on my physical body, I've also slipped into the kind of emotional & psychic skin that evokes a ripple-effect of happenstance and potentiality. Throughout the past few weeks I've been working so diligently to lower my daily and cumulative expectations that I honestly didn't think of the white violets in alchemical terms.  I was simply pleased to see the flowers appear in my yard because they were a special favorite of mine when I was a young child.

I felt their surprise arrival was an acknowledgment of child-within aspects  and also a reminder that things we seek frequently appear once we've stopped actively looking for them.  But I still didn't connect my awareness with the previously "loud" ongoing desire to have this flower join so many others in my electrical medicine shelf.   Without shaping the goal of dissolving this particular attachment to outcome, I showed myself the path of the non-attachment.  Maybe - if I'm really lucky - other former attachments will reveal themselves in the fresh light of simply-being ...without a preconceived framework.

While I was feeding the landscape and attending to the essence bowl, I kept noticing the carpet of fallen azalea flowers.  They gave me the impression of a riotous party thrown by the nature spirits during the wee hours of May Eve.  The flowers didn't seemed like a harbinger of death's inevitability so much as celebratory confetti.

In addition to what I've described, I also got all the left-over poppy seeds planted.  I weeded around the crowns of some favorite perennials.  And then I had the good sense to say enough was enough.  I came inside and spent the late afternoon and early evening stitching on the living room couch.  At a certain point I realized I'd been sitting there for quite awhile without becoming so uncomfortable I had to walk around or lie down.  Just as I realized this and was happily considering the implications, Tony mentioned that he'd also noticed the same significant shift in my stamina level.

All of which implies that yesterday had a strong underlying context of very successful physical therapy.  I think I want to share more details about the specifics but also wish to wait a bit longer so I can assimilate further broad strokes and detailed result.  For now I will simply say that the crooked has been made straight on a number of levels.  Clearing the body of imbalance and long-term pain can be, within its organic process, painful and un-balancing in previously unknown ways.   I've been experiencing that inevitability for most of the past month.  At the moment I feel like a baby horse looks when it first struggles to its newborn feet.  Am taking the weekend away from this desk to achieve more complete awareness & understanding of my homeostatic journey.  Seeya on the flipside.

* I mix emerald elixir and lady's mantle/cathedral quartz blend with regular tap water.  Normally I use full sized watering cans to sprinkle the water throughout the garden beds, around the trees and all along the property lines.  On days like yesterday, when my body isn't firing on all its cylinders, I use recycled jars from spaghetti sauce and fruit salad.  This is easier in the most necessary way - e.g. toting such small amounts is less of a strain in the muscular sense.  It's also a lot more labor intensive because it takes so many different trips back to the kitchen sink.  I like working from the kitchen rather than outside hose because the room is such a strongly estalished "throne of nourishment" for me, family and friends.  Note that garden space and the general landscape ALWAYS enjoys this kind of attention from us; it needn't be a "special" day in fact...any ordinary day can become special when we include this type of ceremonial attentiveness within its general flow.

Comments

[Sacred Suzie]

Acey, I know this is something I should probably ALREADY know but do you sell your essences? If so, where? I am really challenged in this department, figuring out where to go. I really am interested in potentially buying some from you. Your relationship with flowers and the natural world fascinates me.

[jude]

i so love how you connect with nature, especially silently which seems sometime imaginary to me but glad to know it is true. my son came today from the city to put his hands in the dirt and i knew again that he feels what i feel. you have book don't you? how do i find that?

[Acey]

Yes, I sell the essences ... though I don't tend to think of them as "mine"...

Jude - yes I have a book currently self-published.